Thursday, May 11, 2006

Rain rain go away

and don't freaking come back!! Seriously. Here in New England it has been cold & rainy for days, weeks really. I hate the cold and I hate the rain more. Don't go giving me some Mommy sunshine & roses speech about how hate is a strong word. So is fuck & I fucking hate the cold & the rain.

Aside from the obvious reasons like I have a closet full of spring & summer skirts & capris I could be wearing. Or my favorite the arthritis in my shoulder is so aggravated I can hardly brush my hair. My hair which lets face it in this weather rivals Cousin Its hair for lack of style. There is this one big one. . .this weather makes me feel lonely.

Save me the you never alone crapola too. I know I have GREAT friends. Actually most of them are pretty terrific even if I suck and don't call as often as I should and am even worse with email. They are always there the second I need them. Some of them seem to know I need them around before I do.

They call at precisely the right moment or send a text message that makes me laugh so hard I pee my pants. And the emails!! At the moment E owes a rather large telecom company no fewer that 15 computer monitors. You see she sends me these emails that make me laugh so hard I have to spit out whatever I may be drinking. ALL OVER MY COMPUTER MONITOR!!!

I have a few friends with benefits; arrangements if you will that in another life could be that person. But this is not another life it is this one and well lets just say it is what it is. We care about one another but when push comes to shove we both recognize things will never be more than they are and that is OK by me.

So although I am not alone I am lonely. This weather makes me want to curl up in bed with someone other than my dog. Lets face it Creep snores, steals the blankets & pushes me out of bed. I want someone to wake up next to that reminds me even though the weather is shitty, I have bad hair & nothing to wear I still have something to look forward to when I get home.

He doesn't have to be a sugar daddy or a rock god. He doesn't need to be this drop dead gorgeous hair model either. Don't forget I dated a George Costanza look alike! Actually I think George may have been better looking and he may have been a better person too. He just needs to be here with me.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

The Musical of Doom & Other Stories

So last week I went and saw the musical Wicked with my roommate & her daughter. It was a decent night out. UNTIL this song:

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl...

As the female lead belted out this tune with every word easily heard over the orchestra I almost lost my shit. It was all I could do not to pick up my phone & call E and say listen to this shit. Cause this song is the story of every boy I have ever loved. E has had more than her fair share of boy drama as well so I knew she more than anyone could understand it as well.

When I got home the first thing I did was turn on the laptop and send E a warning email about what we now refer to as the musical of doom. Especially since she was going 2 days later with Carol. The next thing I did was decide I needed to start a blog to write about something other than my drunken exploits or shopping adventures. Based on the lyrics I thought "I'm not that girl" was an appropriate blog title. Cause really when push comes to shove, I'm not that girl; I'm just Mel.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Is this thing on?

Creative title I know. I guess this is the test drive & hopefully the first of many posts. I promise that I will try to post with some frequency. Some things you should know up front. . .my spelling & my gramar are not the best.

I have another home that can be found here that I write with my good friend E. She has another home that you can check out here.

I will hopefully update my links so that I can share with what I hope will be a few readers the places I like to visit.